Why?

First of all.... DON'T TAKE GRAPHICS. It is a complete waste of time and effort, the all day exams are so bring and my arm kill. I got ran over by a parked car yesterday.. yes it wasn't moving. Anyway..rant over now onto the blog. So why? why me? why this? I'm pretty sure this crush and liking has gone on for far too long... surely it must be love now? I mean there is literally no other explination, if it was just crush then it would have gone now, and i wouldn't feel like this. Grrr argh! I'm stuck. I don't know what to do. I try so much not to feel this way but i can't help it. I try to forget about him but that's impossible :/ bleh! I 'm missing most French lessons lately due to exams and appointments :( that sucks. It's not fair..why can't I miss something useless like English or Geography? I need to attend French.. it's what I want to carry on after school, I guess it means I 'll have to go to catch up sessions after school. I don't mind it, morer than happy to do it but I can't go by myself, it was a disaster last time I went to speak. I get so nervous when around him. I avoid him as much as I can (talking) anyone help?