Confusing thoughts

So. You all know that I've had weird dreams involving him and that I've been having feelings... Well I thought I was getting over it. Stopped having the dreams and was easier to talk to him. Now the dreams are back and I'm feeling more towards him. It's hard and I just don't know what to do. So miserable over it that it's unbelievable. All I need to do is get it off of my mind so thats why I've blogged. I think I can positively say with 90% that I love him. :/ I'm ashamed of myself but I can't help it. Hm.